Eclipse Season + Reflections
Change is in the air.
Can you feel the shift? In the whole collective?
Parenthood is a real blow job gone wrong at times.
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But also, being a woman in today’s age, a mother. Actually, just being a person in today’s world is crazy. This last month has been full of reflection and insane acceptance of life. So, this post like me is a million tabs open truth love life and reflection. Tap into what you need and enjoy.
Have you tuned into Aligned and Unfiltered? Listen to their latest season and soak up the idea of all the timelines. Do it.
We have seen the most magical shit since leaving Perth. The WA coastline does not disappoint.
Reflection: People constantly told us we would MISS OUT. We haven’t yet. We have got camp spots. Good weather. Amazing people.
Me ignoring all the people's chatter.... AKA I am a manifesting generator. I can do what I want.
Reminder: Don’t listen to everyone! You can make your own decisions.
We were stuck in Perth for around 8 weeks. It rained the entire time. We made the most if it. We did the best that we could.
Reflection: Perth was not what we imagined, or hoped for but I can say it pushed us to the uncomfortable we needed to reflect on our own relationship and actually helped us move forward. Endings and beginnings right. As hard as it was in Perth, we really bounced into the areas that needed love and attention. I can honestly say that the energy of cities full of 5g towers and insane amounts of over stimulation and Wi-Fi etc are just not good for anyone. Our family was angry sick and just flat. We worked out quick that we hate cities and that life for us will be a small town.
Question: Do you notice the change in your mood when you hit the cities areas? Or when the planes are busy spraying the sky? Personality shifts?
Podcast: Make sure you listen to this one around GEO ENGENEERING. Eyes To The Right is one of my fav truth seeker accounts to listen to. Listen. We can’t change it all in a heartbeat, but we can educate ourselves and make small changes. After all we are the future as are our children. Not bothering to do anything is a cop out! Medical Medium is another legend.
Once we left, we have really engulfed life and started to feel like gaining motion forward. You could feel the layers coming off, the weight, the fears and it was like a real sigh of relief. How insane. I was thankful to have seen friends, made new ones but also thankful to have experienced things that set the wheels in motion for different timelines. Our kids even commented in a sigh of relief how they felt so much better being out of the city zone. Things like that when they can even articulate that makes me feel like a good parent.
“Embrace the uncertainty. Every ending is the beginning of something new, and every change is an opportunity for growth. Trust the journey, even when the path is unclear.”
I have really stepped into the surrender of life too. I have always wanted to help, and I have wanted to see progress quick. (knowing dam well that isn’t how it works Sarah) I have been so stuck in that FIGHT mode. Hello motherhood. ICU life. Medical shit. It was a cycle I have needed to break. (I have written a bit on this and I will share more in another blog on being a medical mum) It takes time. It takes multiple conversations. It never ends either. I cant heal unless my husband is doing the work too. This is a big joint thing! So, I threw him into things. That made him uncomfortable as fuck. BUT he did it and is still doing all the things. But I shouldn’t have. I knew that but I knew he was so deep in his own mental health battles that he mentally COULDN’T.
Reflection: I can’t make my husband work on himself; he has to want to do it. Which is hilarious because he really fucking stepped up. He finally opened up. He even asked me to stop trying to help him. Which I so fucking appreciated! But then in his weird way went about getting me to assist in all the appointments to help him get himself on track. Surrendering to just letting go of the control was hard. Fix it life. Sarah let it go. The change has been very noticeable. He also had to surrender to life. Real life. A child with a disability. To clearing some deep trauma. Reflecting on his own childhood and other traumas. Reflecting on his own shitty behaviour. That is what therapy is for. We sit in that uncomfortable and move on.
Being on the road we have not stopped with any of our therapy appointments for us as parents, and for our children. Winnie was lucky enough to have an appointment in Perth which was able to help us narrow in on her brain damage. That is a whole other kettle of fish, but it is also what this year was for. I was determined to work out what has actually happened while she has been inflicted with so much oxygen loss. PLUS, the trauma of every admission. Compact trauma. PTSD. The effects this can have on you as a child. It is real and it has changed our life.
Podcast: The Trauma Chat Podcast is a good one to start with if you think it is something you need to deep dive into. The Self Healers Soundboard is another ripper.
2024 we are showing how kids NOT to give up.
Question: Have you heard about EMDR? We have been doing this all year and it is LIFE CHANGING. Take a listen. Is it what you need? Also IFS? Dear Gabby is another podcast I love to share! Internal Family Systems. Another WTAF therapy that can help unlock more of what may be locked away…
SO here I am sitting at Marble Bar the HOTTEST town in Australia, deep in reflection of how far we have come in the last month alone. (JJ must do to come here obviously) We could have gone our separate ways. Yes, we could have ended our marriage but instead everything that happened bought us closer together, and very much more on the same path. It may have been a real arse about way, but honestly it is a lesson that had to happen. Communication is key on all levels, and one thing I know for sure also is SEX is also that communication. Oh, that scary word! SEX.
Reflection: I was so caught up in the “we are over” scenario that I had actually blocked out what my husband was putting out. The compassion. The understanding. The warmth. Everything that I fucking needed, and it took me a couple of weeks to adjust to it all. I was so use to the old patterns. The fact that he was TRYING hello Sarah get it together. If it was that bad he would have left already but here is throwing everthing into this life. I was so worn out defeated and desperate I just couldn’t see. Sitting in it all, I pulled my head out of my arse between tears and appreciated HIM more. I made sure to have sex. HELLO it is what helps us both on so many levels and learnt to laugh again. And I am writing this and I know so many of us fall victim to this at times. I also know that SEX is a big missing link in so many relationships! How good is fucking!? Honestly.
I’ve realized that the healthiest relationships are the ones where we are not afraid to be ourselves—flaws and all. The ones where we continue to learn, to grow, and to support each other, even when things get tough. - Ferris
Question: How good do you feel after sex really? How much sex are you having? When did you last have sex? Need a sex toy? Hello EX MANAGER of an adult store here….
Feeling DISCONNECTED from the ONLINE world.
I honestly haven’t had much time for connection online, and that was meaning me stressed as fuck at first but then I kind of just surrendered to that feeling too. There are loads of people out here doing all the work, and that means it is ok for me to be in the void. To rest. To soak it all up here watching my family grow and learn to navigate this life again. The life outside the medical system. It is not a quick fix. (again fucking whyyyyy world whyyyy) it is day by day. I have had very little internet (Aldi phone) and I have opted not to use the Wi-Fi. I have spent hrs listening to books, writing, drawing, doing nothing, swimming, walking, having beers and connecting with the family. That little voice still niggled constantly these last few months “POST SARAH POST” but each time I went to I backed up. “You don’t need to” A reminder we all need at times. It is healthy to disconnect! Today has been my MUST do day. I have back up blogs and this one just had to come out. I have been sitting in such a bubble of happiness and contentness.
Audio Book: I am currently listening to “Between Ink and Shadows” I am loving it! If you have any suggestions on some good mythical porn with all kinds of magic, fairies etc I am here for it. No more self help.
"Sometimes, doing nothing is exactly what’s needed. It’s in the stillness that I find the space to grow, heal, and reconnect with myself and my family. The world can wait—I’m doing everything by simply being." — Sarah Ross
Reflection: The pressure to SHOW UP is fucked. I found it hard to really detach from the EXPECTATION. But I did. And I am. The people who need us will always find us. In this field there are million people who can offer services that help us. I don’t need to be flooding my socials. Schedule when I can. (I can not get my links to work and I hate working from my phone) Connection has meant just keeping in the DM with the babes who keep me grounded, and understand. Listen without judgement and get this. The witches and healers, energy workers and light workers that are here in this space. Thank you to my team for the months of voice messages, DM. The check ins, and the energy giving. The cards and the no bullshit deep fucking chats. Sometimes our other friends just don’t understand.
Question: Do you have your real deep mates? Then your other old mates? Or have you shifted full to the deep connections?
SO signing off from Leo season, the retrograde and all the crazy that has been the last few months with the biggest cup of gratitude for the surroundings I am in. For the relationships that have served me. For the old me that has departed. For the new chapters that we are manifesting as a family and this new balance that is coming to fruitarian. I am so lucky that we have been given this opportunity and that we are here today in one piece. That each day we get up, we show up and move forward another few hundred kms. That our end goal is the same, that as a family we can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
“Do what you love, no matter the hurdles. The path may be messy, and darkness may surround you, but keep going. The end goal is worth every step, and through the struggle, you’ll find the light that guides you home.”
Be kind to yourself.
x Ferris x
P.S I will be in BROOME from the 9th. If you need to schedule a session head to the booking page
